Spaced out zone

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What movies or TV series have you watched more than 5 times?

I have to think on this one. Movies are like my books, a way to move away from my routine and just watch proposed ways of interacting and other thought processes. That’s fancy for not having to think about being the frustrated perfectionist my brain thinks I should be.

Star Wars: Individuality most of them 5 to 10 times. Collectively from 1 to 9 around 7 times. I see or hear something different or new to me every time I watch them.

Babylon 5: on TV from the beginning, on DVD, on CD, and now on streaming services. There is so much going on. I have enjoyed getting to know the characters, but sometimes it seems we envision other planets having the same understanding of life. That point can be argued by the fact we are humans and we don’t even know our understanding of life.

My last observation is my favorite. From the books to the movies: The Hobbit and Lord of the Rings: Mother used to read to my brothers and me, The Hobbit was my favorite of the books she read to us. I have watched the movies in and out of sequence around 12 times.

Since I don’t normally count the number of times I watch these adventures these are the number of times I can vividly remember. Looking back at this entry I think I am due another round. Have a great day and enjoy your distractions!

Let the Spree Begin

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Where would you go on a shopping spree?

That would depend on the parameters of the spree. To a Realtor or Land Broker or maybe Contractor to remake what abode I have. Definitely payoff debts and prepare my retirement lifestyle. New clothes, new choices, old books, old places to traverse… sounds fun when can I start?

Mine

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What is your middle name? Does it carry any special meaning/significance?

My middle name is a family name. Those that know me know the name. Those that do not know me don’t need to know it.

Me

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What is the last thing you learned?

I am more than the paper trail that tries to define me.

Taking Time

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Start, Thoughts

It has come to my attention that I have been remiss in my thoughts. I have kept them to myself. This new year has become a new start for me. I am in the process of becoming a School Bus Driver. I have been a monitor on the buses for two weeks and have had a good run with two wonderful drivers. I am learning about the students and the rules, and studying for the Learner’s permit (CLP) to become a Driver.

This week we are having very low temperatures in southeast Texas. It is supposed to be in the teens tomorrow night. Yeah, I have done my grocery shopping and I am staying inside unless I absolutely have to get out.

Have a good evening and Sweet Dreams!!!!

Defender, Protector, or Keeper of the Fundamental Nature of an Intense Desire or Enthusiasm

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When I broke The Identity Guardian of Radical Passion down by definitions of the meanings I was overwhelmed. But then I realized, as a Mother, Sister, Daughter and Wife/Partner I have taken this identity a long time ago.

I have and still do support my children to do what makes them passionate about their lives. I am their biggest cheerleader and will always hold the ladder for their dreams. I keep the memories of their wonder and excitement of discovery as they have grown into adulthood.

I have always seen the strength and courage in my Brothers. Even when I did not always agree with them I recognized their right to their passions and paths. (I am pretty sure they think I tried to sabotage some of them, maybe I did at first out of jealousy.) I still have the memories of the triumphs in their lives I was privy to.

My first marriage was … a trial for both of us. In many ways, we failed each other, but in the most important passion, our children, we are in agreement. Our children are our passion that means the most from our union.

After waiting a few years I was found by a man who loves me and wants to protect me with all of his being … and I let him. I have learned through the years that to allow another to love you completely and you to return that love completely you have to give everything. The good of you, the sad of you, the angry of you, and the hurt/damaged of you.

Through all of this, I have realized how much love and protection my parents gave me and my brothers as we made our way through our trials of life.

When I was younger I fought with my Mother every chance I could to prove my intelligence; yes that is rather oxymoronic, but I digress. One day after a rather bitter battle my Daddy came to me after he had, to my great shock, taken her side in an argument we both knew I was “right” about. His words to me gave me a new vision of how my world needed to change and rewrite my vision of my future. That is a discussion for another day.

My Daddy told me, “Grace, you are and will always be my Princess, but your Mother is and will always be my Queen.”

To the end, their relationship amazed me.

I found my Knight/King also years later. Well, he found me. I was ready to just live; I and my Knight live with gratitude and respect for each other. Day to Day we are grateful for the life we live and the people that have helped shape our lives.

 

Definitions

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Previously I discussed an Identity. Today I am defining the individual words to help me work with this identity.

Guardian:

noun

noun: guardian; plural noun: guardians

1. a defender, protector, or keeper.
2. “self-appointed guardians of public morality”

3. synonyms:

   protector, defender, preserver, custodian, warden, guard, keeper; More

   • a person who looks after and is legally responsible for someone who is unable to manage their own affairs, especially an incompetent or disabled person or a child whose parents have died.
   • the superior of a Franciscan convent.

Origin:

late Middle English: from Old French garden, of Germanic origin; compare with ward and warden. The ending was altered by association with -ian.

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Radical:  

adjective

adjective: radical

1. 1.
2. (especially of change or action) relating to or affecting the fundamental nature of something; far-reaching or thorough.
3. “a radical overhaul of the existing regulatory framework”

4. synonyms:

   thoroughgoing, thorough, complete, total, comprehensive, exhaustive, sweeping, far-reaching, wide-ranging, extensive, across the board, profound, major, stringent, rigorous

   “radical reform”

5. antonyms:

   superficial

   • forming an inherent or fundamental part of the nature of someone or something.
   • “the assumption of radical differences between the mental attributes of literate and nonliterate peoples”

   • synonyms:

     fundamental, basic, essential, quintessential; More

   • antonyms:

     minor

   • (of surgery or medical treatment) thorough and intended to be completely curative.
   • characterized by departure from tradition; innovative or progressive.
   • “a radical approach to electoral reform”
6. 2.
7. advocating or based on thorough or complete political or social change; representing or supporting an extreme or progressive section of a political party.
8. “a radical American activist”

9. synonyms:

   revolutionary, progressive, reformist, revisionist, progressivist; More

10. antonyms:

    reactionary, moderate, conservative

11. 3.
12. relating to the root of something, in particular.
    • MATHEMATICS
    • of the root of a number or quantity.
    • denoting or relating to the roots of a word.
    • MUSIC
    • belonging to the root of a chord.
    • BOTANY
    • of, or springing direct from, the root or stem base of a plant.
13. 4.
14. NORTH AMERICANinformal
15. very good; excellent.
16. “Okay, then. Seven o’clock. Radical!”

noun

noun: radical; plural noun: radicals

1. 1.
2. a person who advocates thorough or complete political or social reform; a member of a political party or part of a party pursuing such aims.

3. synonyms:

   revolutionary, progressive, reformer, revisionist; More

4. antonyms:

   reactionary, moderate, conservative

5. 2.
6. CHEMISTRY
7. a group of atoms behaving as a unit in a number of compounds.
8. 3.
9. the root or base form of a word.
   • any of the basic set of 214 Chinese characters constituting semantically or functionally significant elements in the composition of other characters and used as a means of classifying characters in dictionaries.
10. 4.
11. MATHEMATICS
12. a quantity forming or expressed as the root of another.
    • a radical sign.

Origin:

late Middle English (in the senses ‘forming the root’ and ‘inherent’): from late Latin radicalis, from Latin radix, radic- ‘root.’

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Passion:

noun

noun: passion; plural noun: passions; noun: Passion; noun: the Passion

1. 1.
2. strong and barely controllable emotion.
3. “a man of impetuous passion”
   • a state or outburst of strong emotion.
   • “oratory in which he gradually works himself up into a passion”

   • synonyms:

     (blind) rage, fit of anger/temper, temper, towering rage, tantrum, fury, frenzy

     “he worked himself up into a passion”

   • intense sexual love.
   • “their all-consuming passion for each other”

   • synonyms:

     love, (sexual) desire, lust, ardor, infatuation, lasciviousness, lustfulness

     “hot with passion”

   • an intense desire or enthusiasm for something.
   • “the English have a passion for gardens”

   • synonyms:

     fervor, ardor, enthusiasm, eagerness, zeal, zealousness, vigor, fire, fieriness, energy, fervency, animation, spirit, spiritedness, fanaticism More

   • antonyms:

     apathy

   • a thing arousing enthusiasm.
   • “modern furniture is a particular passion of Bill’s”

   • synonyms:

     obsession, preoccupation, craze, mania, hobbyhorse

     “French literature is my passion”

4. 2.
5. the suffering and death of Jesus.
6. “meditations on the Passion of Christ”

7. synonyms:

   crucifixion, suffering, agony, martyrdom

   “the Passion of Christ”

   • a narrative of the Passion from any of the Gospels.
   • a musical setting of any of the narratives of the Passion.
   • “an aria from Bach’s St. Matthew Passion”

Origin:

Middle English: from Old French, from late Latin passio(n-) (chiefly a term in Christian theology), from Latin pati ‘suffer.’

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My identity becomes a defender, protector, or keeper of the fundamental nature of an intense desire or enthusiasm.

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This definition will help me with this journey of this part of my being. ONWARD!!!!

Thoughts for Today Saturday 02/03/2018

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On one of my Social Media Sites I belong to a group of men and women celebrating and contemplating self and universal completeness. One of today’s posts was “What’s your Solar Eclipse Identity?” I am game……  according to the chart I am ……

Guardian of Radical Passion

I felt the need to determine the meaning of that identity.  A preliminary thought is that my quest is to fan the flames of passion …..  not the physical lovemaking kind, but the passion of life around me.

I am contemplating that for the next 7 – 10 days and will be back with revelations and insights I come across.

On a side note ……  I love the name and feel invigorated already.

 

 

A Change is Needed

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This is a picture of me leaving my son’s wedding on October 21, 2017. Why can’t I see this image in my mirror? A Change is Needed ……

I have been consistently irritated and depressed for about a year. The irritations and frustration escalated when I became unemployed 05-26-2017.  The issue is not that I am unemployed, it is that once again I am feeling unworthy. No one told me I was unworthy. I have told myself that because I didn’t fit the seat …..  I have been feeling the seat was more important than I was. THE SEAT IS NOT ….. I AM …… I am worth all that I can put into my self-care and my happiness.

I am planning a journey of love of self.  I deserve it.

Limbo … I have been here before.

I have been in limbo for a while. Living day to day without much more than breathing.

I lost my job in May, my Mother has been diagnosed with Alzheimer’s for about 6 or 7 years and in the past year, she is not recognizing her children. I try to see her every month, but I live in Texas and she is in a facility close to my Brother and his Wife in Mississippi.

I have recently had a wonderful weekend with my children and other family members when My Son married his sweet lady. There is more, but I Leave that for another post.

To summarize I need work, but I am not sure I want to stay in Accounting. I feel dread when I think of working as an Accountant. I am at a loss … Accounting is my degree, how can I feel this way?

My husband is getting ready to retire in January, so this adds a bit of stress also. We are at THAT age. Because of events out of our control we are not as comfortable as we would like to be. I still have about 10 years before I retire, we should be good by then.